i'm feeling better.

i woke up about an hour ago, took a shower, walked brooklyn to school. maurice stayed home from school today just to be with me. i'm so happy (: although it would have been amazing if he got up to walk with me. brooklyn is a handleful when i'm alone. still, he makes me so happy. would you like to see a picture of him?

he's beautiful.

i'm feeling a little better today. i feel i have my father to thank for that, thank you daddy. i texted him all last night about how i don't know myself, or what i'm doing in my life. depression runs in my family, like legit needs happy pill depression. he told me that's very normal at my age. still, i'm not so sure who i am anymore. however, this week, my goal is to go for my GED. i hope the career center is open on weekends.

i'm supposed to be going to the vagina doctor today. -__- it sucks, but i thought i'd throw that in there. maybe i'll tell you how it went later.

me, my mother, & maurice are going to see my grandmother today. she wants me to wrap presents & help put up the tree. i'd gladly do it. i love christmas, it fills me with warmth.

my grandmother used to be the closest thing to me, then idno. she changed. she started calling me fat because i'm not skeletor like my mother, & always pointing out my flaws just because they didn't meet up to her standards. we got into a fight because i couldn't take it anymore, & now we're good again. i love her all the same.

i kinda feel like i'm going to throw up.